In the last few days I have been pondering how to continue my blog. While I am merely a first-year rabbinical student, I'm unsure as to how my thoughts are perceived by others. Even if I were to continue on blogging through my second year, the same thought occurs. But, once I enter my third year, I start interning, and I imagine that won't be so simple - not necessarily in a time-crunch sort of way, but rather a perception sort of way. As I get another internship and start job-hunting in my fourth year, I would assume that my blog would certainly no longer be operating. I certainly wouldn't want potential employers finding out everything about me. Granted, I know that people would want to know all the intricacies of my life and thought, but there's a line somewhere.
I've realized that for both dating purposes and professional(?) purposes, it is better not to leave some areas of my life untouched on this blog. Therefore, I have purged - or, at least, have tried to purge - my dating posts as well as some of the more "touchy" posts. So, I apologize now for anybody who was trying to look at back posts regarding these items, but they have now vanished.
So that leads me to my next point - my change in direction in both this blog and in my life: whither? While I certainly see my blog lasting, at the longest, two years more, it may meet its demise much sooner. Furthermore, if I want to present myself as a future rabbi rather than merely as a student, I should also blog as one. This last point, however, strikes me as a haughty one: that I should conduct myself as if I were already a rabbi, which might be construed as arrogant. That's a "toughy".
I'm going to try to work on sounding more rabbinic or something on my blog - or at least blog about things that aren't so non-rabbinic. Okay, let's face it, I'm having a hard time identifying my status and outlook at the moment.
I'm done with this post, but not finished with the idea - very not finished.
Props to Shira for voluntarily suggesting edits to this post.